inside_its_2ndHead

==4/1/24==

todays dream wass preetuy wwierd,, I really dkont remember mutch but I remember plqying some twisted gaem eith my gf adn her sisters friends, in order to play the game she told me to pull a card and then to roll my sleeve up and cuut my wrist, liek i said i really dont remember mutch but i do remember being unsure and debating if i wanted to play or not because i didnt want to cut myself again :(  after thinking I went back up to my gf and asked if i really hd to and she said i needed to, once she said that she held my hand with a razor and helped me cut my wrist and i slowly started to bleeed lolz,, once we did that she smiled at me and suddenly i felt better abuot cutting myself,, not sure if it meant anyting but im hapuy i saw her pretty face in my dreaams (?) ^^;

summary: played a weird game with gf, had to cut my wrist, gf helped me cut wrist adn smiledd @ me ://

==5/25/24==

todauy dream was rllllyyyy fast,, i remembrr first going too tge store to get sum things adn theen returning home, wgen i got hoem i saw my moms neeww lamp she goot on tge ground adn it somhoww got on fire? it endded up burning a good paart of my house down and for soem reason my house ended up beuing right next 2 my school? the fire spread and burned down the music club ( :( ) adn in the mean tiem i joined tgis new film club,, the oeople tgere were juts either weird or theatre kids but one ofv my friends weere tgere adn i guess he eas under tge influence adn heartbroken so i asked wgat was wroong eith him adn he ended up kissing me? I reemmebr being so mad adn anxiosu when he diid adn he went on to kiss another girl? I ran awauy from the club but also forgot to get my bag adn turns out he was givinng a speach about how I was so mutch bettr tgen tge other girl he kissed and how he loved me?? atp i remember being realllyyy scared adn uncomfortable so ran out agaiing adn my firend followed me adn i remembr keeping my distamce and trying to find out how i wouulldd tell my girlfreind about the whole accidnet :(

summary: house got burnd badly, fav school club diid too, went to sum film club where my frieend was there, kissed mee and some girl, was in loev with mme and admitted it, felt bad and had to figurr out how too tell my gf about my situation :,(

==AND OUT ITS HEAD==