crisis

I don't want to waste my time on Franky, I don't even know if he's in love and I don't even know why sometimes I think about George and I feel bad again, because I want to be able to be with Franky without thinking about anything else, without thinking about George. But the time I've been alone is overwhelming me and I'm starting to feel everything very strongly, plus I'm afraid of mistrusting and that Franky will get angry and tell me to go to hell, George left me with 800 different traumas and I don't want to throw them all in his face to Franky because he didn't do anything wrong, but I'm afraid of being that in love. Besides, lately I don't know why I'm being too possessive and I hate that, I hate that makes me angry that he talks to other girls, I want him to have the freedom to do it but I just can't

I can't