Layer 11: Lost Progress

Sorry guys for not updating for a long time yet again.

I tried befriending my crush, didn't go well, he politely rejected me.

I'm still kind of hurt from this, but, he's human, too. He can decide if he wants to befriend me or not. Still, it hurts loving someone you can't have. It feels like he's completely unreachable (which he is in all honesty) and that kind of hurts.

But, it is what it is. If he doesn't want to be friends with me, I'll leave him alone.

Also, I did start avoiding him starting from yesterday, I just run to the bathroom the entire break if we have classes in the same hallway till I'm sure he's gone to his classroom, or I come out as soon as the bell rings.

Also, yesterday I came to another class that is the same grade as me because I have a girl that I know there. I came to inform her that my head teacher (that is hers and mine English teacher) isn't here. A guy came up to me (I also know him) and he asked me who was my ex. I was kind of confused till he specified that he was asking about if whether I had an ex boyfriend or not. So, when I told him: "No I don't have an ex boyfriend, I never had a boyfriend before." and as soon as I said that, he just replied with: "Yeah, I can tell."

Ouch.

That hurt me.

I sometimes feel like I'm romantically unlovable, and him saying that did not help with that feeling.

That's it, nothing much.