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Hi, not very active on here, busy stalking my boyfriend

I guess some basic things. I finished a test today, i just have to write an essay. It's about the trail of tears. Also learning about propaganda during the holocaust. Why is it called the holocaust? 

Anyways, my and my boyfriend hung out last weekend. We watched Hamilton(finally) but he keeps saying he didn't like it and the music sucked. Which, like, upsets me. Because why did we watch all three hours giggling in bed just for you to say it sucked? come on now.

I have a lot of things i want to say but i don't have the guts to say it. Everything has a domino effect, and my mental health is a castle of sand right now (not to sound like THAT girl...)

I can't go to anyone's house this weekend because I'm packing a lot of stuff up. Boring but whatever, maybe the new house will be better.

I have a really hard time opening up to anyone now after what i found out a month or so ago. It was devastating but we kind of brushed past it. It's impossible to hold a grudge against some people. 

I need a hobby to dump my feelings into. I want to get into working out but i need to learn how to stay motivated. Its not that hard and its dumb to act like it is, and i disgust myself with this recognition but ill work on it. 

No highs and lows for the past few weeks. 

We recover.