im scared of being loved hahaha

There's this boy who i know since i was like 9 and now we stared to talk after years and we even went on a "date", and he always send me these messages where he tells me that im beautiful and shit.

But I've never experienced this type of...affection even though I'm 17, and yeah people tell me that I'm pretty and stuff and but i don't feel like that.

Sometimes i feel like I'm really pretty but sometimes i feel like the most hideous shit on the world.  

Well, this is not so important. 

What I'm trying to say, is that i feel overwhelmed, i don't like or i don't know how to react to this type of affection because no one had ever given it to me. 

I feel like its fake, because i don't see myself worthy of being loved

anyway, another day of trauma dumping on the internet.