Demons and cycles that you can’t seem to break.

For About Three Years it seems like I’ve been terrible at Connecting with God . Every time I start getting better something happened to throw me off . I felt like it was my fault and that something was wrong with me . I’d get better and go right back to where I was previously. I’d try to change or get away from something just so i could fall back in. Though my circumstances were partly my fault there was more to it that i wasn’t aware of . 

2022 I was in a weird place in my life , I disassociated on a daily and nothing ever felt real ,and on top of that I  messed around with the wrong things (ex. Crystals , Fortune telling ) I gradually got better and lost interest in it and ReDedicated my life to Christ at some point this year . ( I never stopped praying to God during 2022 I just wasn’t spiritually close to him and was  trapped inside my own head.) 

I noticed I was able to feel the presence of God or the Holy Spirit at church but rarely if ever in my own home . A friend told me to throw out any Crystals that I had and helped to rebuke any of the demons I could have brought in by leaving that door open. 

Since then there’s been a major difference and God has helped me to move forward , I’m able to feel his presence, I have less intrusive thoughts, and allot more comfort and encouragement in my life. 

One Disclaimer, Crystals are not inherently Satanic or Evil . They only become a problem when we Idolize them or believe they have some kind of power. 

I’d love to hear your opinions or what you know about this stuff  in the comments, by no means am I trying to say your Satanic if you use Crystals , I’m just saying what happened with my personal experience. <3