Our DID System

 We have Dissociate Identity Disorder (used to be known as Multiple Personality Disorder) and I'm going to give a short introduction to what this is and me and my other alters. 

  DID is a disorder that happens to children under seven years old. They live through multiple traumas and this causes their personality, which is split until the age of seven, to never fuse together and over time these develop into full people that we call alters. They all have purposes and are usually formed from survival and the feeling that the 'host' (the alter that is out the most) is literally going to die. As we get older we can split into more or fuse together for multiple reasons.

 I'm only going to introduce the main ones.

 Liberty (Libby)- This is me. I am the host. I'm 22 and I relate to the physical body the most. As far as I know, I've been the host the entire time we've been alive. This profile is set up for me so the likes and bio are mine.

 Penny- Our sexual protector. She's 27 and is one of the three main people to front (fronting means in control of the body). She likes early 2000's emo music and 80's music. She's also our caregiver which is an alter that takes care of the littles (young children alters). She's a little cold at first so a lot of people think she's mean. She's just protective. She's also a huge flirt.

 BB- This is the only little that fronts. She's three-five and can shit between those ages depending on how she's feeling. While she is a child alter, she is also a protector. She's the only alter besides our gatekeeper that can block another alter without getting tired or really trying. She's very bubbly and friendly. We don't really have to watch out for her because she understand adult concepts about protection and taking care of the body. This keeps her safe from predators online (and is why we are open about her information. A lot of littles are kept secret because they can literally act just like children and be targets for child predators and kidnapping). She also takes over late at night and puts the body to sleep if she thinks we need to go to bed.

Scarlet- Scarlet is our gatekeeper which means not only was she the first alter besides me to exist, but she also controls everything (I do not. As host I only control the outside life). She can block alters, put them basically in comas, take and seal away memories, seal away alters, builds the amnesia walls between us, and goes into security mode when we split. **We had a split into three not long ago and she quite literally shut the whole body down while playing an alarm/warning (which sounds like your thinking voice, except it's hers and on repeat). We didn't move for over 12 hours while she tried to process the split and took control over the situation. She's around 30 (won't tell us her exact age) and never fronts. She tells us that if she fronts it will be a life or death situation.

 ** A little information on splitting and why it's such a big deal. Splitting is when new alters are created and it can even be where other alters split into multiple thus losing someone we know and making ones that we don't. We had a split from nothing into three. It makes you have a full emotional breakdown and there's things like screaming in your head and panic attacks. It's physically exhausting. So after a split we go into a dissociative coma where we can't talk or move for hours. This is for a bunch of reasons but mostly so the new alters can't immediately take over and do damage. It's also so our brain can physically heal. 

 Since DID is a Dissociative Disorder it involves a lot of dissociation which is basically long amounts of 'zoning out' where you can't snap out of it and feel disconnected to your body. It can be dangerous since it can literally happen at any time including while driving, cooking, sexual activities, eating, showering, etc. **

 Note: It should be known that this is not something 'quirky' or 'fun'. It's incredibly difficult to live with and comes with a lifetime of trauma. Each alter that exists is from something horrible or a need to physically tear your brain into more pieces to exist. People with this could have anywhere from 2 alters to over 100 and can have only a handful show and have tens and tens more basically put into a mental storage that they don't know about. 

 It's incredibly hard to deal with sometimes. Between having to explain this to your relationships (and expecting them to say it doesn't exist or mistreating your other alters) and the stress that it creates, it can physically exhaust you to the point of not being able to move. Many doctors still pretend it doesn't exist even though it is now in the diagnosis book.

 It's also notable that this disorder's whole point is to BE INVISIBLE EVEN TO THE HOST.

 **If you have this, you will NOT KNOW until they fuck up big time. I want to be very clear. This whole disorder is suppose to fly under your radar to keep you safe. You'll have all sorts of signs that you WILL ignore. Time loss. Memory loss. Feelings that there are multiple versions of you and that you can't decide who you are. Plus a ton more. If you have a feeling that you may have this or the other type, I recommend that you watch youtubers that have DID and teach about it and to take serious time to talk out loud and think loudly that you WANT TO TALK TO ANYBODY IF THEY EXIST. You'll feel fucking stupid but with more information and attempts you have a better chance of getting a response from them. Go to a therapist that you seriously like and trust. Going through life trauma with a professional has a good chance to get them to show up too - IF YOU ARE PREPARED FOR THE HELLFIRE THAT THIS DISORDER IS. **