Day 41 Of Waking Up Today In This Morning And The Morning I Woke Up This Morning I Woke Up

THIS MORNING I WOKE UP TODAY IN THIS MORNING AND THE MORNING I WOKE UP THIS MORNING I WOKE UP AND REMEMBER THAT EVERY MORNING THAT I WAKE UP I WO I WOKE UP THAT FUCKING DAY, JUST REMEMBER THAT

short log-in today!!! :]]] too much happened im so tired. ive been out of the house since 7 AM, i came home for an hour around 6, and then went out again and got home just now. i cant wait to sleep dfkjhdg

[ Sleep Schedule || Previous Night ] - someone noticed this was gone.. so it's back. last night i got around 6 hours of sleep! good! and now i get to sleep even more <3

[ Organization ] - i organized my room quite a bit cause my friend came over! she was here for less than an hour because we got dressed, and then went to an event, and two other friends i invited were also there! i was so happy they were there <3

[ Socialization ] - 

i did a lot of socializing today. i went to class, worked on group project in class, i guess i got a little loud and excited bc some dude said 'silence' to me like im some fucking lowlife but this guy has been wearing the same shirt every single day this entire semester just to get into some frat group. shut the fuck up. sorry you have to stink for a semester and wear some dumb shirt everyday cause you want to be included in a social group cause no one else will ever accept you in any other way other than with other losers who follow the same dumbfuck rules and orders.

anyways back to positivity!!!! i hungout with my friend from class an hour after that, we worked on some of the organization of our project, and then i met up with my peer mentor (uni upperclassman who is v kind to me!) we talked for half an hour, and then i met up with M and another friend i think ive mentioned and already given a nickname for but ive already forgotten. i mentioned her yesterday! she makes videos for me to watch :3 i love watching them, id prefer watching my friends talk about anything they want while i eat food instead of watching any other person!!!!!!! everyone pls make more youtube videos but specifically if u are my friend, thank you

but ill rename her Zee for now! zee came over and zee is awesome and zee is super great! 

my childhood friend emma drove us. and idk it was just fun! the event was great and fun! there was some kind of trivia activity there and the only question we got right was about Fortnite dfjghkdfg

but that made it even more fun? i love my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways then we drove home and everyone went home and then after i was home for a bit i recieved a message.

from a friend who has haunted me for the past like year. we stopped being friends a year ago cause they were a bad shit friend and person, and i they sent me an apology message

i left them on read! IT FELT GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY SAID I WAS RIGHT! THE GUILT WILL NO LONGER EAT AT MY BONES!!!!!!!!! IM FREE IM FINALLY FREE!!!

thank god bro sometimes id feel so guilty and stupid and now im free. all i needed was an apology ig, but even though they admitted some faults, they didnt admit to all of it or see the full picture, and i am just not gonna spend what little energy i have worrying about that kinda stuff

yeah basically today i didnt spend a minute of it alone. my head hurts. i need to sleep

[ Art/Creative ] - zee used my paint markers when she was in my room and its so cute and pretty and she left it for me that i feel so fulfilled even though i didnt draw it!!! it looks so pretty!!! one of the characters she drew has hair based off of mine right now!!!! she looks so cute im so happy! i need to wear the exact outfit this character is wearing. she's so cute!

im so happy to have friends like zee! yay! also my sister liked zee too, cause she gave her a drawing as well, she's just a really likable friend!

[ School Work ] - i worked on my group project and it's going well so far!! yay!! i will take it easy tomorrow, but do my best to catch up! yay! 

[ Hydration ] - ehhhhh i had more caffeine than water today. bummer. :[[ but its okay cause i ordered a cute little water bottle that's gonna be easier to carry around today!

[ Physical Activity] - yknow if where i live was more of a walkable area at ALL id be having a lot more activity, but we spend most of our time in cars. i still walked a lot today cause i was running from place to place, but it's stil not my daily goal of movement! i want more, but especially lately i havent been able to find the time for more! i want MORE!!!!!!!!!! i will start doing daily stretches every day cause i think itll help with my soreness too! 

i tend to carry really heavy backpacks so my shoulders are unintentionally jacked. for those who imagine me petite, Stop. it's not accurate! i have broad shoulders and back, and solid arms. my current daily makeup and hairstyle is very cutesy, but idc :p i am shark at heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i need to become a cowboy.....saw boothill from honkai star rail recently and oml...im in love...but also i need to be as cool as that. but im in love 

[ Diet ] - i didnt eat that well today. sniff. i need more time to plan out meals....

[ New Information/Something New ] - honestly cannot remember anything new. so tired rn

{ [ Music ] } - La Ingrata by Cafe Tacvba ! FIRE! its been stuck in my head the past week! ingrata!!!!!!!!!!!! no me digas que me quieres </3 no me digas que me adores, que me amas, que extranas!! que ya no te creo nada!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ingrata!!!!! </3

{ [ Thoughts ] } - im so tired so much happened i dont think ive comprehended all of it, maybe im getting TOO social. tomorrow night im invited to someones house for dinner too sniff. i need some alone time, i need stardew time! that is exactly how im coping right now

i feel like this baby. Me? Goo ga ga
gn buh bye! see u tomorrow buh bye!!!