i wish i knew *ੈ✩‧₊˚

irritability washes over --

salty waves and raging skies.

for no reason at all,

i am seething.

i am angry. 

i am bitter.

anger reveals shame.

shame becomes regret.

regret crushes me in burden.

burden gets heavier in my arms

and i spill on those undeserving.

for no reason at all,

i ruin everything i love.

similar to your favorite sweater i've since given away

or a letter of passion to the fire.

i shoot to kill. i make sure it hurts.

internally screaming, "you hit me first!"

i do things i can't take back.

always ready to attack.

why am i still victim to a phantom bruise?

kneeling to god,

i'd use my last wish to wish i knew.