gf

no one actually has to read this im fr just going to rant

i love my girlfriend so so much she is so beautiful and pretty and kind and funny and smart and oh my god 

i've liked her on n off since like,,, 7th grade and the entire reason i got w my last long-term relationship was to GET OVER HER which obviously didn't work... and obviously i loved my ex bc i wouldn't have stayed w them for so long if i didn't, but i really just never felt the same way than i did with my current gf. and it's so surreal to me that my gf actually LIKES me . she's so much prettier than i am, she's short and thin and has pretty straight hair and the most beautiful brown eyes and soft skin and freckles when i'm like the opposite? and i just never thought anyone like her could ever like me but SHE DOES  !! and she wrote me a little letter on valentines day saying  "i've been in love with you almost the whole time i've known you" which hello?? that's so wild. idk. 

i just feel so open and comfortable with her, even when i'm mad at her or annoyed or just upset in general she always makes me laugh and always makes me feel better. nothing is ever awkward with her, like i remember one time we somehow bumped teeth when we kissed?? and it was so easy to just laugh and get over it. which i've never had w anyone. and even though i'm comfortable w her she still somehow makes me nervous, like just being with her is exciting and she's lowk intimidating which is so silly bc she's so short and tiny but makes me so nervous IDKIDK 

okay byebye she's not on here so she won't see this :3 but i hope she knows how much i love her