My faith story

my faith story

 when i was younger I was a Christian I wasn't necessarily raised Christian but my dad is Lutheran. id say 3rd-5th I was a Christian but I didn't really ever follow the scriptures I also lived in Texas which is a Christian majority state so I only ever preached what I heard around me which was texan typical homophobia. after I left Texas I moved to where I currently live during 2019 . I pretty much lost faith because of TikTok and stuff like that and just my atheist friends around me I used to joke about god which I deeply regret .during 2021-2023 I practiced witchcraft I bought herbs crystals and all that jazz my dad used to threaten me with church which gave me a negative perspective on church and Christianity I went through a really bad anti-religion phase where I would mock believers and would debate Christians online which fueled the fire for me. idk why I did it but I just did I would commit blasphemy and mock Jesus I was really depressed. i had a friend who converted to Christianity which was strange at the time for me . she invited me to church which I declined looking back now I wish I had said yes after that interaction I read some of the bible online and I went on a rabbit hole then one night after I got in a fight with my dad I went on a walk to see the Christmas lights I broke down crying and said "god if you do love me and do exist please give me a sign" after that I went to the park and looked into the little library that we have and I found a book about Jesus. now I'm a devout Christian lol :)

idk why I posted this I just wanted to share my story ig 

(not forcing religion btw)