Free me?

It's Monday and I'm already suffering, in a mediocre way.

I hate how I look and how I dress. I wish I could look like others do when they wear something, and I wish I were skinner; and that's saying it in SIMPLE TERMS.

Otherwise, I feel such intense anxiety for no reason. Maybe one reason is because of a guy, or because of school, but there is no need to feel THIS anxious.. and I can't even convince myself to calm it down. Plus, I can hardly focus on getting any work done, which makes it worse! 

P.S. How do you even keep a blog up