I feel like crap again (vent)

Does anyone else feel useless to the people they care about?

 I feel like some of my friends don't actually like me.

 Idk 

I sometimes feel like I try too hard to be liked. But I almost always end up alone because of how I am. I never purposefully push people away. 

I don't like doing that. But I feel like people don't actually like me. I feel like my friends are only my friends because they feel bad for me. They pity me. As for my boyfriend I feel like he just doesn't actually like me.

He's pretending to make me feel better. Or I feel like I'm just going to be a phase for him.

I miss the people I care about. 

I wish I hadn't let them down.

I'm just hoping I didn't disappoint them