Self Analysis

I love being off-putting. It's like a defense mechanism. People don't know how to handle my unsettling vibe. Been through a lot of stuff but yeah. I don't know. 

See, I have a personality disorder, autism, and bipolar. It all overlaps with each other, so my behavior isn't considered "normal" or comfortable for others. I'm respectful, and can act gracefully and pretend to be like everyone else, but when I'm alone I act differently. I've grappled with my identity and my personality for so long that it basically turned into me not having one I guess. And people don't like that. I'm not dangerous, just emotionally volatile and self-sabotaging. I own it now instead of fighting it you know? If I make someone uncomfortable then I genuinely feel sorry, but I can't necessarily change how they feel about me. I may not have desirable personality traits but at least I have media and entertainment that I can cling onto for a sense of normalcy. Like for instance; I'm obsessed with Sonic the Hedgehog Adventure 2. I enjoy music to the point where I listen to it every day, and I like to cook and bake. 

 I love fruit, I like classic literature and contemporary literature. I'm in the process of writing my own poetry book (maybe if you guys want a tidbit I could post some poetry on here). Fashion and aesthetics are also something I enjoy. I don't like shrimp, or beans, and I don't like hot weather. 

-Moon Malice xx