Similarities

I look like you, 

And that’s almost the worst part,

Because it hurts,

‘I can see the resemblance!’

No, you can’t,

I don’t look like that brother,

The one that is standing,

And breathing,

And living before you,

I look like the one no longer here,

I look like the one who couldn’t be helped,

I look like the one that fell into a pit,

And I feel myself falling too,

Why?
Why did it have to turn out this way?

What did I do, in a past life or otherwise, to deserve such a cruel and unusual punishment?

I have repented,

I have prayed to die and bring him back for everyone else,

And that hurts too,

Because it will never happen,

And death is scary,

How did you face it?
How did you manage to pull a brave face and end it all?
Teach me, please?
Teach me how, and then teach me how to bring you back, and I will,

What’s the point in even trying though, I know I can’t talk with you anymore,

You’re not omnipresent, as much as I’d like to hope you are,

For the countless hours I spent praying,

Praying to God for him to tell you I miss you,

To ask you to come back,

To send my wishes to hope that you’re happy up there,

Because that’s surely how an 8-year-old should be occupying their time,

Crying in the middle of the night,

For someone who can never come back.