An Untitled Poem Of Addiction

I did it because it was cool, that it felt just right
Now I do it just to make it through the night
My head feels like a soup of greying matter
Dissolving into nothing as my stomach grows fatter

I can't vape it leaves my lungs feeling strange
I don't like pouches because the people are lame
I used to do hollywood, now it's NXT's
I thought it felt good, now it's just a part of me

The music helps me find my frustration
It's the hobby that kept me from isolation
But between the radio shows for the world to hear
And the discussion online of an echo chamber of agrees
I'll be as alone as I will ever be

I did it because they felt great all around
Every form of life just felt safe and sound
Now it's keeping my head from breaking
My body from decaying
My life from escaping

"You Never Stopped Smoking, but I forgive you"
Was what he said to me as I took another drag
I wanted to be the best child you could've ever had
Now I wipe the ashes of my anger on the concrete slabs.