Im so fucking worthless I hate myself

All I do is start arguments between my mom and my grandma and be a stupid idiotic teenager who deserves nothing I wish I had my fucking razorblade I want it back, my mom will yell at me then my grandma will yell at my mom then they argue then my mom yells at me for making them argue then her and her boyfriend argue for her and her mom arguing and then they all yell at me.

My friend stoped being friends with me because they didn't like getting bullied for being my friend so now they are friends with the people that bullied us.

I hate everything I wish I was dead.