word barf

im currently listening to estrada’s estra noche que sail and it captured everything i love about indie music. music is my escape and i use it to feel things. this is gonna sound autistic and cringey but i genuinely haven’t felt genuine happiness for more than an hour for at least 2 years, but music changes that. just hearing the soft beats and the overly poetic and dramatized lyrics i’ll never understand and/or experience just invoke a sense of euphoria i’ve never had anywhere else. music is such a fucking blessing and i need it to survive. i use it to do anything and it helps me fantasize/romanticize my life more than anything else. i wanna cry because i love music so much i just can’t put it into words. it’s like finally getting something you’ve craved for a week or itching that scab that’s bothered you for days—i will never not love music. 

indie music is honestly one of the greatest inventions of all time. half of the genre is misinterpreted and the other half just sounds the same. like the song i’m listening to basically sounds like potwash’s Only You And Everyone Else or .com’s Will I Ever Find Love? but it fills the emptiness that enjoy’s I’m Content. gives me yk? I love them all the same even if it’s sorta repetitive but it’s just so amazing how alike millions of different songs could be simply because of tempo. i love music so much