im the tree falling in middle of nowhere

There is always this question in philosophy "If a tree falls down in the middle of nowhere and there's nobody to listen, does it make a sound?" And I mean, obviously, it does but the question is not even about the tree or its sound it is about what we need to ask ourselves, does something exist if I'm not aware of its existence, I think it doesn't, we all see the world at our own point of view and we determine what that is based in our past experience, there's perception before existence, just like Descartes stated.

Now why am I the tree? simply because nowadays there are a lot of lgbtttqi+ people and all of that including myself as a transgender fluid, but for example, I'm not that feminine so when I feel like a woman, not everyone not to say anyone notices it, I'm not perceived as a woman, therefore, I'm not, we the validity of our identity it's chained at the rest of society perception, that's why I'm the tree, because even if I scream I'm a woman at the top of my lungs until I destroy my throat but there's nobody to hear it or believe it then I'm not, I'll be stuck with what society thinks I am.

And sometimes with some friends I might be perceived as a woman and not gonna lie it is an amazing feeling, but as soon I leave that safe place, reality just starts kicking in so strongly, sometimes even stronger than I can handle, I'm not mad about it cuz there's no reason to be, in the end, it's what I have to live and what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.

Now disclaimer for all y trans and enby folks, don't get angry cuz someone misgenders you out there without even knowing you, at the end of the day if you see someone that you could think is a man you gonna treat like it and the same for women, just don't get all angry and explosive and use that opportunity to educate someone, let them know you and be the tree that makes the noise.