Backstory for Previous Blogs

⚠️‼️TW: MENTIONS OF UNWANTED CONTACT, MANIPULATION, AND CHEATING‼️⚠️

This is just a backstory to my previous blogs.

Time Period:

October 6th, 2023 - Met Current Boyfriend

December 3rd, 2023 - Cheating Situation

December 3rd, 2023 to Now - Ex Boyfriend Bugging Me

How I Met my Boyfriend:

I met my current boyfriend on the bus when I was with my ex. I was going to my Annie Maude's that afternoon and he was sitting in the seat across from mine. We kinda glanced at each other a couple of times until I eventually said hello. We started a conversation about music and skateboards. Pretty innocent stuff and when I had to get off I said goodbye and that I might see him again next week. We talked again when I was on the next week and I learned that he was a part of the drama club and they were putting on a play. This was the day we exchanged numbers and officially became friends. We talked almost everyday unless somebody forgot to text the other and the other waited for a text. My ex boyfriend, then boyfriend, had just gotten restrictions on his phone. His limit was 2 hours a day maximum. That was put on all electronics as well such as his console. He couldn't be on more than one at the same time. This was when him and I started texting less and less and my current boyfriend and I started texting more and more. My ex barely ever talked with me at all. I was lucky if I got 15 minutes. The rest of the time he spent playing on his game. He didn't seem at all interested in genuinely talking to me and my current boyfriend did. I mean h3!!, my ex didn't even try to really make plans with me or see me in school at all.

The Cheating Situation:

As expected, me and my current boyfriend became closer and closer. We got a little flirty over the months and I hid this from my ex. I'm not saying it was right. I've been cheated on before and it was terrible. There is absolutely no excuse for what I did and I have come to terms with that fact. Back to the story. My current boyfriend and I had planned for a meetup on the bus so we could, potentially, kiss. The plan was extremely elaborate and there was no flaws in it, except.. there were going to be other people on the bus. We'd have to hide it extremely well in order for everything to go smoothly. We got on the bus, kissed 3 times, and then he wasn't allowed to sit with me anymore. The bus driver called us out all 3 times. That's where $h!t went DOWN, down. Now as I've said in a previous post, I planned to tell my ex boyfriend about this and leave, but I was too much of a pu$$3y to do it. With this in mind, I got off the bus and I'm working up the courage to tell him. Just as I'm about to, his friend calls him over. Yeah, the nosey kid from my other post yesterday. Then my ex boyfriend breaks up with me on the spot and walks out the door. I am way too disappointed in myself to even go to class. (For context, I absolutely hate being late to school or missing a day of school at all.) I literally sat in the bathroom the whole day upset and crying because I had hurt my ex boyfriend. Knowing I could've stopped it.. I felt terrible. Eventually, my mom told me to suck it up and that it was my fault and I'd just have to live with that. So I did. 

My Ex Boyfriend Bugging Me:

Almost immediately after this my ex boyfriend started talking to me again. Mostly yelling at me or crying to me. The thing is, I still went to his house in the mornings because my mom works and she has to drive me to school. My school starts later than my mom's work. Thus, she drops me off there. Mind you we had talked things over and decided we could be friends. We were still friends. Good ones. Until the.. stuff started happening. He kept trying to touch me. I was uncomfortable and expressed this. He kept doing it. Every time I saw him. He tried to touch me. He's a.. bigger guy. It wasn't like I could stop him. He never tried going in, but he would always move his hands onto certain places. He did this in our relationship too, but I figured it was normal and ok because.. we were together. I never really felt comfortable, but who was I to say no, right? Anyways, we went to the mall together one time and that's when it really went downhill. He tried dragging me into a changing room. I stopped him and he "apologized", but at that point I was just so done with him. We stayed fairly cool after that until I blocked him on snapchat because my boyfriend and I had been together a week and he wanted me to. Mind you my ex still had my insta and my number, yet he still made a huge deal of it. Also, he finally started showing me more attention. Texting me whenever he possibly could. Calling me multiple times in a row to get my attention. Which is funny because when I asked him for more attention he didn't bat an eye, but after HE broke up with ME he wanted to give me all sorts of it. Every time I'd answer the phone he'd be crying to me again. Which I was ok with the first few times, but whenever he was like "yeah we'll just talk about plans and stuff" it always ended with him yelling at me and me crying. This continued for 3. Whole. Months. Never ending. Until recently. I decided to block him on EVERYTHING. He finally has decided to leave me alone, but still writes me letters. Apologizing over and over again. I can tell he's hurting, but I'm not the one he needs to be going to for that validation. Never mind the fact that he faked having brain cancer to manipulate me back AND even said he was at a mental hospital to manipulate me as well. He has become so much more toxic after the breakup and I don't really understand why. He keeps saying he cares about me and that he doesn't want to hurt me, yet his actions are saying otherwise. 

Basically, that's the entire backstory to all three of my other blogs that I've posted on here. I'm sorry that this is so long, but it's one heck of a story. '^^ I appreciate you for reading this anyways!