03.21.24 - life musing

decided to stop taking my psych meds. the withdrawals are pretty much over now, and while i can tell my irritability is up pretty bad, i can also feel a whole range of emotions and have some sort of energy. i also think my heat problems might be getting easier but i also continue to avoid heat because.. pain sucks. i'm sure as the weather warms up i'll have my answer on if it was them that was causing the pain or if it's something else. i know meds help me in being palatable to other people, but so far all of the ones i have been on have had more bad than good going for me. i hope i can handle heat again, i need to start working out, and i miss being able to exist in public without overheating. i really need to get on getting my driver's license too, though i don't make enough to even afford insurance for my car. reapplying for disability again but that shit always takes forever. hopefully with ceasing these meds i can feel better about trying to progress things