el amor es frágil

"Love is fragile. It’s a beautiful thing to love family, friends, and especially someone you might spend the rest of your life with. I love my family; I know they love me. If I ever fall down, they will always be there to pick me back up. We will always stick together and never leave each other behind. My friends are individuals I can laugh with, have complex discussions with, vibe with, and overall trust. There's a special bond; friendship can never replace any materialistic thing. As for the person I might spend the rest of my life with, well, she’s not in the picture yet, but I think I found her. She's everything I've ever wanted - her eyes, hair, lips, body, passion, intellect, personality, and soul. I never thought I would meet her; I traveled 2957.1 miles just to see her, and it was worth it. The night we met, she drew me in. What I won’t forget is how she ran towards me, smiled, and gave me the biggest hug I could imagine. In that moment, my heart was beating faster and faster; I thought the whole world might hear it. The more we talked, the more I wanted to know her. That second night was the night it sealed it for me - I never want to let her go. I want to squeeze her tight, brush her hair softly, kiss her passionately, know how she’s feeling, remember every mark she has on her body, love unconditionally, recognize her body shape whenever I lose her in public, overall be a person she can trust, and who is with her every step of the way, no matter the challenges we face. Love is fragile, though, especially if it’s love like this. I have told her how I felt, but never like this. If I did, I think she would be scared, and when I think about it, I'm scared too. In my past relationships, I rushed things and it never lasted. Someone like her, though, I want to take it slow because in this very moment, we need to. She has a lot on her plate, and I need to consider her feelings. I can’t just force a relationship. She needs time to think and process what she is feeling because it can be scary, and believe me, I'm scared too. But you know what? It’s a discussion we both have to have. We both have to be committed. The decisions we make, we make them together. The struggles we face, we face them together. The relationship we build, we build it together. Every piece of block we put on the dirt road is a path of our love and friendship. We walk one step at a time, enjoying the moments we have together because it’s the journey we take, not the destination."

final thoughts 

I will forever admire and respect her I know that she has gone through pain and I recognize that I hope she knows that. She’ll probably see this lol but these feelings are real and true I can say all these things but I have to actually show the dedication and time I want with you it will take time and trust ofc but I AM committed.