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So life loves me(not really). I just lost my best friend, the one who's been there for me since day 1 and I feel like it's all my fault. Everytime he tried to talk to me abt something so like deep I push it away cuz I don't like to think about the bad, it keeps me sane and keeps me from wanting to cut again. But this time he really needed me and I wasn't there for him. And he said he couldn't be my friend anymore. I hate myself for that so much and I just hopes he comes back. I can't force him to be my friend I just have to get over it but it's hard cuz one minute we was just laughing on the phone and now he's sending voice messages abt how he can't be friends with me. I really fucked up and I hate myself so much now. Idk what to do anymore. He was the only one who was real and loved me for me. I'll never meet anyone who treated me the way he treated me. He was so amazing and I just lost him. 4 years down the drain all because I couldn't be there for him. I fucked up.
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Starvix
Try and calm down, my friend. If you are not in a position to help someone else, then that is just how it is. Others cannot expect you to lift them up when you are focusing on trying to keep yourself afloat. It's unfortunate that this has happened, yes, but I think if your friend truly appreciates you for who you are and not just the support you can sometimes give, then they will come back. If they do, try and communicate how you cannot always be there for them, for your own safety. If they do not come back, don't blame yourself for it. They needed help, and you were unable to provide. Not unwilling. It's not your fault, and it's okay to not be able to help someone at times.