Venting

i am so tired

i feel like i am at my breaking point with life

i am not waiting for a miracle because they don't come to those who wait, i have been actively grinding to get shit rolling and to fix things but it's all for nothing, everything just keeps getting worse

i am about to kill myself, fr, if something doesn't change, i will just give up because I'm tired of having to give my all only to have it blow up back in my face, no one around me helps, they just watch me struggle and when i ask for help, they disappear like a shadow in darkness

fuck this, fuck my life, fuck my friends, I'm so over it

don't be surprised if i never log back on, fuck this