Eva is going insane again

I miss being happier

While I wasn't ever really happy in my life I do wish for that slight bit of happiness back

Ive never felt so alone before

And I wish I could just tell people how I feel but everyone important to me is suffering with other problems

Much bigger ones

Meanwhile I'm just dealing with the same ones from my childhood

I wish to get better

But idk what to do

I just wish for everyone to be happy

I wish to help everyone who's in need

Why is that so difficult to ask 

I feel like I'm getting worse but I'm not aware

Idk if I am or if I'm just pretending