i love him 🎀☠️

i wanna watch him suffer at my hands, i wanna wrap the fingers he called so small and nimble around his neck and watch him feel how small and weak and quiet i am and i wanna watch him writhe and beg for mercy and watch him feel the helplessness i let him make me feel. i want him to stare into my eyes without looking down, to stare at me not with love, not with lust, not with anger, not with torment, but with fear. I want to see his eyes tear up and his jaw dropped ever so slightly, enough for drool to erupt from his lips, his face flushed and his hair cascading in wild curls and for him to look deep into my eyes and realize nothing has changed in them, that i still love him, with the bloody dents of my nails in his neck. id let him die of course, in my arms, kissing him, whispering to him, loving his dimming soul. When his beautiful heart stops beating, ill slice a thin opening between his rib cage’s from his collar to the base of his dick. i’ll open him up gently, with love and with the care i love him so deeply with. i’ll fish out all the various bits and creases and ill douse myself with your warm fresh blood. i’ll lick it off my lips and grimace at the iron taste. i’ll lick the insides of your skin clean, after carefully removing all your gorgeous, strong white bones and then you’ll be nothing but a vessel for me to crawl into, sew back up and live in, and be with you forever.