Im still weird 2

I made a blog before on how I'm weird and 5 months later I'm still the same I don't expect much of a change but sm has happened to me

While at the same time nothing

I still rot in my room scrolling away and only go out on the weekends

I wish I could just live alone

I don't want to deal with my family sometimes because I feel like I'm just a big sad loser to them

Ive always felt different and weird around everyone too

Nobody really understands some of the things I do and label it as just Eva things 

JUST EVA THINGS? 

HELP ME

Like please

At this point my jokes are a cry for help

I tell people I'm actually starting to hallucinate and they don't believe me

I talk about forgetting my own name

And people around me

I GENUINELY THOUGHT I WAS 15 BEFORE (I'm 17) 

HECK I FORGET MY AGE LIKE ALL THE TIME

I just want help

And I most definitely want an actual good therapist because a lot of them are very...judgy here