💾 LOG 2

I cleaned caramelo II and pastels (two baby turtles I took in a few weeks ago) tank tonight!! anthony is also doing well! I decided to weigh myself yesterday and seem to have gained quite a lot of weight the past few years... how annoying.

I want payday to come by faster! I should have enough for an apartment soon... but maybe I should hold off the apartment idea for a bit longer, after all I would need furniture right? I should save enough for cheap but decent furniture for my future bedroom! The kitchen and living room can wait, after all I don't care for those two... just the bedroom and bathroom... though a cute kitchen would be nice too. Oh, oh, I want to get the senshi nendroid, so I can put it in my kitchen! It could encourage me to eat somewhat balanced meals.

But if I want to live in an apartment, I need a more stable job and more hours... I should talk to my boss to give me more hours or just change me into a full-time schedule. It's impossible to live off part-time in los angeles... eugh..

My dad has gotten a bit better since his last visit to the hospital, so I don't have to worry about providing for my family. (I'd rather die then give any money to my mother.)

Oh, I wanted to talk about my partial DID as well.

I should list off my head mates first, that's what they're called, right?

Lazuli is the one that's been around the longest, from what I can remember she emerged around my elementary years. She seems to play a big sister role and takes over when I'm out of it, helping me eat and clean.

Rosa was the second and appeared in the middle of high school. He seems to be a replica of middle school me. A total jerk with a persecution complex. There were times when I couldn't tell if I was Damian or if I was Rosa. As we were very similar around the time he appeared.

Lime showed up right after. He seems to be the embodiment of my hypersexuality disorder.

And then there's Angel. It's hard to tell if they're a boy or a girl. All I know is that they're sometimes 5 and sometimes 8. When I age regress, I feel like our minds fuse and become one. But also not? It's really strange. They get along with Lime, surprisingly enough.

Like I said, the only one who ever seems to front fully is Lazu. The other three are just loud voices in my head. Well, Rosa is a little too hard to determine if he truly fronted or not as I was still conscious? Is that the right word?? Is co-fronting a thing?? 😕 Well, it doesn't matter, he hasn't done much in a while ever than bitch and moan.

My back hurts, I think I'm done with tonights log.