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I think i'm gonna start journaling on here, so here's my first entry..

March 13th 2024

any words I form aloud would be far too simple for the weight of what it was. hopefully writing it out helps me piece it together lol. 

I woke up about an hour ago and my brain is eating at me so I'm gonna journal lol.

Your in my dreams damn near every night (I wish I was joking), most times I don't remember what's happening in the dream later on, because honestly I don't want to. It's not that I hate you because I never could, and my dreams surrounding you are usually really positive, i just know that it's not real and at some point I have to wake up and face reality.  There's only a couple of dreams that I very vividly remember.  I think I only ever told you one of them, so i'll describe that one again...

We were at kammerer, laying on the small grass hilltop by the skatepark, gazing up at the stars like how we talked about doing before. You were laying by my left side, I saw your head turn to look me in my eyes and you said "all the stars are alinging". I responded "what?" and you looked back up at the sky with no response. And it ended. I woke up. 

After that dream I started coming across that phrase over the next couple of weeks and it extremly tripped me out, bc I feel like u don't hear that every day. But anyways imma stop writing now bc I feel stupid.

*also ik u might see this so if u want me to take it down or anything else I might write lmk*