A letter to Manon

You will never read this but i don't care

Dear Manon, i'm glade you're dead

You beat me, insulted me and violed my body.

We met in 6 grade, we weren't in the same classe but we have a friend in common. We didn't like each other in first sight, so you showed me how much how you hated me. When i finished alone after losing my only friend you decied to attack me. You called me horrible names, trow stuff at me in the hallway and on the way of the bus stop. You spread rumors about me saying that i had sex with a female teacher. You where one of the girls that tried to undress me in the gym bathroom. Because you where a homophobic lesbian, it was a secret to no one but since you where homophobic and has to much pride to admit your love towards woman, no one attack you about that.

You pushed me down the floor in front of the school, you kicked my back, my head and my private part. Why ? Because i tell to the school conselor what you and the others did to me and she told you what i told her. You're friends record. I tried to run in the bus to be safe, but you followed me. I remember how scared i was and the malice in you're eyes. It was a funny for you. You pulled me by my hair and hit my head against the bus window and kicked my stomach with you feet. You then punched me in the nose, breaking it. I came home with a bloddy nose but say i fell. Because i didn't want anymore trouble.

You where a white trash. You where fucking ugly. You smelled like crap. I knew that you parent didn't had a job and lived with the state help. You're parent where abusiv, it was a secret for no one. You're mom had no shame yelling at you and slapping you in front of everyone. I learn that you're dad had a restrictiv order towards you, he wasn't allow to approch you. I'm glade that you life at home was a living hell !

 "But it's not nice she was suffering you could have some compation !", i didn't turn violent towards people even tho i was brutalized in school. I have no compation for people like her. She deserved to be beaten up, she deserved all the hate in the world.

You died last years after a scooter accident. When i learn that you died i was so happy. Caus finaly we where not sharing the same air, finaly i had some justice. You where finally gone we will never met again. You will never grow up or had children. You will never find hapiness. That all you deserved. 

Manon, i hope that your soul is lost in the void of death. And that your death was painfull.