Last Weekend

Oh my goodness, I've been meaning to write recently but it just hasn't happened yet. But here I am! At 3 AM! Yippee!!

Anyways, this past weekend was a blast, it ended in a crash but no biggie. I'll get into that later. So, I got to ride with my boyfriend home from school! It was awesome, the whole day went by faster than usual, but it didn't feel fast enough because of the anticipation of getting to his house!!! Aghh!!!! 

His parents love me so much, each time I come over they remember to get me a white monster, it's so cool. I love his parents as well. 

Well, when we got to his house, it was instantly like a relief. I love being at his house, it's so chill, we literally rot in bed together. We lay and we cuddle and watch shit on YT. And of course we smoked, as per usual at his house. His parents and him are proper stoners, like they smoke in the morning, mid day, and then once or twice in the evening. It's pretty chill! His mom doesn't smoke at work though, and he doesn't get high at school or anything like that. 

We kissed and cuddled, I missed his lips so much. I've had experiences and feelings with other people, but genuinely it feels different with him. Though, I know every teenager says that, or just anyone in general. I couldn't describe it to you. It's relaxing being in a relationship with him. My last relationship was riddled with worry and anxiety. If you're anxious about doing mundane things in a relationship.. I would leave. 

Anywaysssss, so we reached new levels this weekend. It's crazy because our chemistry just continues to grow and grow and has become more intertwined with each other. It gets easier and easier to talk to him and say things. I try not to dream the way I usually do in relationships.. but I really like imagining a future with him. He says he sees us staying together a while, but he's sensible and doesn't immediately think we're going to get married.. unlike some people (me.)

I got to literally spend all weekend with this motherfucker dude, it felt like days, a week even. I loved it. We kissed, touched, and did things we didn't usually do. NO, we did not fully FORNICATE!! UGH!! GET YOUR BRAIN OUT OF THE GUTTER YOU NASTY PERV-

I totally wanted to, but alas I have a habit of finding guys who have never seen a kitty in real life, much less touched one or even felt like they could. That's something about him, he's usually lonely. He isn't much of a people person, especially at school. But when he's with me, alone, he's so much different. He's like introverted, not antisocial. 

Whatever whatever, I've probably already said this before. So, I'll focus on this weekend. We talked about random things, laughed and got high together. We both got really really freaking high, and we just rubbed our singular brain cell together and laughed at stupid shit. We then went to sleep together, it was so nice, I loved it. I love just being in bed with him, he is so warm. I can't describe it, again, but his warmth is so much different than other people's warmth. 

Anyways, I got to touch him this weekend, and it was pretty cool. He enjoyed it, me too. He touched me too. He kissed me all on my neck and I kissed him all on his neck and face. 

Next day, we got up pretty early. I accidentally wake up early a lot and just go back to sleep, but he usually wakes up early and stays up. We went and smoked with his parents and he started playing his game, and I took a nap on him. He helps me not worry, because I was worried he would be upset at me sleeping, but then I know he isn't like that. He would either tell me, or know that it's not that deep. 

I didn't really eat a lot that weekend, not on purpose, but I would be too lazy to get up. I didn't really focus on my hunger anyways. My diet that weekend just consisted of MNT Dew and white monster, and two garden salsa sun chips. I know.. very nutritious. I had a huge fucking turd when I got home though. 

So, high again, and just hanging out. His friend came over, but he wasn't very interested in hanging out with both of us. 

That night, we went to sleep kind of early. He woke up again at like 12 and I woke up at around 1:40 maybe. That was daylight saving's night. We were confused at the change of time, but didn't worry too much. We hung out and stayed up til about 6 or 7. At this point he had gotten on top of me, which was a step forward. I get sparks in my lower back thinking about it. Then I think I or either both of us went to sleep again. I don't really remember. Weed brain.

My parents couldn't get me that night, so another night stayed YAYY!!! Though, I worry I worn out my welcome that weekend. It's okay though. 

Well, on wards, throughout the day more kissing, cuddling, talking, watching videos, getting high, some deep conversations. At the end of the night, I was confused and worried about how I would get home. I did eventually get home. 

Before that though, I gave him some head. He'd never had that before, but he enjoyed it. We were both pent up the whole weekend. And then I was mistakenly told that my dad disowned me, but that was later cleared up (today.) I got some of my money stolen.. urgh I cried that night. EVERYTHING IS IN ORDER NOW THOUGH!!!!!! 

Everything is pretty okay, pretty chill, some things here and there but nonetheless everything is gud.

If I haven't announced it already to my millions of followers on here, I'M GOING TO PROM!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!!!