You might not be insane but I am...

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over hoping and expecting new results. It's just like how everyday I wake up and my brain plants the illusion that my little sister is still with me after what happened 4 years ago. My brain plants the illusion tricking my ears and eyes telling me she is right next to me. There are other examples of my mental illness but this is the one I use the most.

The doctor diagnosed me with schizophrenia. It had always been there since I was born but it was barely recognizable, my symptoms got worse. I used to be ashamed so I tried to act as normal as possible. Ignoring them. But I still had my panic attacks and sometimes I would yell for seemingly no reason. People would stare.

 It's the definition of insane. But I don't really care anymore, It's better now. I have meds but the voices are still there. I'm here for only two reasons. 

1. To meet other people with mental illnesses  that I can relate to (I have a bunch of Mental Illnesses: OCD, PTSD, ADHD, Anxiety, severe  separation anxiety, Panic disorder, Depression RAD)

2. To try to make friends. I can sometimes be a little odd once you get to know me. I'm sorry if I seemingly mimic things you say or do. I don't know why I do that.