rleationships r hard

met this girl a day before valentines day, my friend introduced me to her and right from when we first hung out i was flirting a lot. she seemed into it which is what inclined me to keep going and i thoihjt it was gonna go somewhere.. uh yeah a week later she rejected me saying she "doesnt see me that way" i was obviously fkn sad, mind u this was the first time i liked anyone. she asked to be friends still and i couldnt decline cause we went to the same school and my friend knew her very well (the one who introduced us). then a week or 2 after THAT we got talking and she said she rejected me cause she thought i wasnt serious abt her and that she was scared she'd hurt me cause im young n shit. (we have a 3 year age gap) so i said i was serious abt her, and she was like okay and i set up a date.

date goes by nice, i gave her a hickey and we went to a nice cat cafe.

next fucking day im rejected again cause she said im too inexperienced and young. 

listen im not blaming her for anything, its fine she didnt feel the same about me, im just, i dont know what to do in this middle ground cause i only liked her cause she seemed to like me? she said she used to have a crush on me and shit so i was just feeling confused, and again she really seemed to like me so.. i liked her just as much and even more so. but now that i find out she just cant see me that way i dont know how to feel, i dont know what im left with. she rejected me today, i didnt wanna cry abt it like last time so i worked out for a bit then went outside for a walk. just, trying to process everything, and what i got out of that whole interaction. what did i learn, yknow? and i just dont think i learned anything, i got with an indecisive person andd, well, it was my choice in the first place to get into that situation. 

whatever im so deterred from relationships now.