A letter to Loïc

You will never read this but i dont care

Dear Loïc, i hate you

You destroyed me when i tried to create myself. You destroyed my mental heathl and my lif.

We met when we where in 7 grade, we weren't in the same classe tho but it's seems like you already know me since you lisened to your friends rumor's about me. You start to call me names in the hallways like "fish face" "slut" "fatass", then you started to record me when you called me names or when your friend did. You asked me out as a joke, you made fun of my look. You made me feel more worst than i was. You are a monster. When i was 14 both of our class had gym at the same time. I hated gym class caus i hated sport and people where too much close to me. You and your friend made fun of me. You said : "I can't believe you are a girl, a girl can't be this much ugly". Someone said : "Is this really a girl ?". I didn't pay much attention. But i notice all of your eyes on me. On my chest, between my legs. Disgusting. I went to the bathroom, some girls follow me and tried to take off my cloth to check if i was a real girl. You where here to film and you post it on snap. People at school saw it. I was seen as a bitch even by people who didn't knwo me outside of this video. You where on my suicide letter.

In high-school you where without youre friends. You where the only left around me. But you made new friends. You didn't left me. In the last two year we where in the same class. You weren't as aggressiv as before but you still made fun of me. You called me "emo" "weirdo" "school shooter". But you where a good student that wanted a good university so you tried to be more discret.

You are spoiled child. Your mom could have send you to a private school but you where to discipate at that time to go. So you became a teacher pet, you did and said everything so teacher could do anything you like. You did the same with people, acting nice, cool, polite. People are dumb and you knew it. But you kinda win, you went to the best school in the country. Because you have enough money and your dad as a nice company. Spoiled bicth. I hate you so much Loïc. You destroyed me. You put a razor blade on my desk and asked me to cut myself in front of everyone since everyone knew that i was cutting myself in the school bathroom.

You go to church, you pray making yourself passing for a good man. A good human being infront of your imaginary friend. You are a fucking hypocrite. You are not good, you are bad ! If hell exist you will definitly go there and burn internaly.

I hate the fact that your life is going well, i hate the fact that you breath, i hate the fact that you dind't have any consequence of your action. I hate you so much Loïc.

From the ugly weird kid