I don't know.

Been a while. But I say that every time I make an entry, so who gaf. 

My mental health has been..........shitty, to say the least. I just don't have the time nor energy to do the things I like atm. Constantly tired, busy, and basically trying to stick around, at least, for a little while longer. lol. 

But sometimes it's hard to want to keep on going. Sometimes I feel like just sleeping all day. Sometimes I question why I even want to stick around. I mean, I haven't really been "normal" since I was like, literally 9. So I wonder if it will ever go away for good, or if I have to go away for good. 

But nobody WANTS to die, y'know? I'd like to at least live until I'm 30. I'd like to do something meaningful with my life. Maybe start a band, become an actress, who knows. 

I surely don't want to die. I don't want to leave my friends. I don't want to say goodbye. I want to live, but what's the point of living, if you're merely just existing.

But in all honesty, I doubt anything will actually happen to me. (trust me, I've tried, but I'm just a pussy lmfaoooooo) And plus, I have to outlive my enemies. I can't let them win lol. So y'all are stuck with me.

At least, for a little while longer.