'To find myself in a place surrounded by you"

I had thought that as more time passed by, it would be easier that it would be less painful and yet here I am now, in front of my laptop

I held you so tightly, so close to me, I had been content with that with your presence, it was enough

And now you’re gone

‘everything I've ever let go has claw marks on it’

I let myself breathe content with you’re presence I let myself release my hold on you

for once, I wish that I hadn’t let go let them appear at least they'll show I held you