my opinion on Abby from tlou *SPOILERS*

okay okay guys pls don't cancel me pls but I have mixed feelings on Abby

this is coming from the most insane Ellie simp but like there were moments in part 2 where I was actually so frustrated w Ellie. Especially when she put revenge for Joel before her family. Bcs she seriously did have a family. And yes I'm pissed at Tommy for disrupting the peace she found away from that negative energy. (He was such a hypocrite in part 2 I'm sorry I still love him I promise) 

But Abby was honestly not much better. She dragged her entire friend group to go and kill this guy after she had basically moved on from her fathers death. idk if she just needed closure or smth like that but that's not the way to get that. And the same can be said for Ellie even tho she took it to the absolute extreme (ie: "Im gonna kill every last one of them")

Like its actually insane how parallel their stories are tho, especially their motives. I think Abby's was more justified though, even though it was obvious that Joel had changed his ways since he killed Abby's dad. Honestly though what was she expecting. Did she think he just didn't have any friends that would come after her if she killed him. At the same time though, Ellie did even fucking worse. Abby could've easily killed both Ellie Tommy AND Joel but she chose mercy over it (God complex much).  

And for Ellie, I think she didn't have time to mourn. I think just the overwhelming feeling that she lost him along with everyone else even after he said he wasn't going anywhere totally messed her up. I think that in her mind killing not only Abby but making Abby suffer what she felt when Joel died was the right thing to do. and she did that by killing everyone Abby knew and loved. And yes, its fucking brutal but in Ellie's mind shes thinking "You couldnt possibly comprehend how I felt when you killed him so I'm going to make you comprehend." kinda narcissistic but I still love her regardless

And I couldn't honestly say that I hate Abby bcs I seriously fucking hated her even after I knew her motives. I was blinded by love fr