i am currently a highschool sophmore, im 16, go to an all girls catholic school, i have a bf and im a virgin. trust me theres a point to all that information. so naturally my friends are my age and most (almost all) of my friends arent virgins. and i feel like lately the whole virginity thing has been almost following me. for example this morning my one friend was talking abt how her bf is gonna hang out at her place on friday and they might get it on also when i was reading Catcher In The Rye for my english class and Holden was talking a lot abt how hes a virigin. most ppl i know arent virgins, or theyre half-virgins or something. ive also just seemed to hear it quite often from the girls at school talking abt doing it, i overheard today a girl telling her friends how she got it on in the bed of her bfs pickup truck (cant imagine that was comfortable) and just in general the concept has seemed to come up. i feel 2 kinds of ways about it, on one hand i know that i have to be ready for these things whether it takes a week or 5 years but on the other hand i feel like im missing out. like theres a party and im the only one not invited. i know it sounds kinda stupid but i know im not ready to go all the way w my bf but at the same time i feel like im missing out. i feel like i shouldve done it by now if that makes sense? like theres smthn wrong that i havent done it yet. ive talked to my bf abt it and he was like "im ready when u are take ur time" which is great and my feeling isnt on him. like i dont feel bad for making him wait or anything, hes never pestered me abt it. i feel bad cause other ppl have done it. from my friends, to all the cool popular girls, to the athletes i feel like everyone has done it but me. i know thats illogical since theres like 400+ ppl at my school but still. it feels like im missing something, like theres a huge joke im not in on. even tho ofc in school ive always been taught "no sex b4 marriage!" it seems like everyone my age but me is getting laid.....i know that logically i just have to wait till i feel ready and not guilt myself into feeling ready or do it cause my friends have done it and i feel bad cause i havent yet but still theres that need to fit in. ive been w my bf for over 2 years now and havent done it. ppl i know have lost their vcards to guys theyve known like 6 months, my friend (the one mentioned earlier) has been dating her bf only 8 months. idk i dont mean to judge its just that its been 2+ years w my bf and i just havent mustered up the courage to do it. i feel almost broken and weird abt not getting laid yet like i feel like i shouldve done it by now. everyone else has... idk this has turned into an insane and long rant and thanks for reading whoever out there cared enough to read this whole thing <3
rant on teenagehood and virginity
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LightningShade
Hey man idk if this will make you feel better but I am a 17 year old virgin who never had a boyfriend nor a first kiss. Trust me you shouldn't feel so bad about it, just because everyone else had done it doesn't mean ya should. Take your time and when you feel ready you can do it. I suck at giving advice like this given I'm an asexual but idk I felt the need to comment anyways.
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Anakrol.S2
I can relate to your blog, I'm 19 years old, I have a boyfriend and I'm still a virgin! My God, it seems like everything is about sex and sometimes it feels like I'm going crazy!!! But I keep in mind that everything has its time and that rushing things would make the experience bad. (・∀・)
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helloketty
Crazy that it's always the Catholic schools that got the least virgins fr
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frrr like theres more drugs, sex and vapes at catholic school than public, at least where i am
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