angry

i wish i wasnt so angry all the time. 

im not in education and i dont have a job. im 19 but mentally i feel like a kid. i cant do any of this real life adult shit.

all my friends are living without me and im so angry. at everything

im alone every day. with no money and nothing to do. 

the year is repeating and i fear im just gonna slip into drinking alone all day again whenever i can find the money for it. 

im just so alone and i get so angry at everybody who is somehow managing to function well enough to live and have lives and not be a total fucking loser like me. 

i try to do stupid little hobbies like learning guitar but im just so alone, and miserable, and angry.

whatever. this just fucking sucks