05/03/24 -Hi I'm back and I'm going to China!-

Hello! It's been some time since I last wrote here ✧ദ്ദി( ˶^ᗜ^˶ )

Now it's 2024 and I have some stuff to talk about!!! yippee!!

I've mostly been sick and done school stuff.

So.. Yeah.. I'm a little embarrassed to be back actually, there was that cabin thing with my friends I really wanted to be the next thing I talked about, but sadly it got canceled.

My friends are very indecisive with their plans. Usually anything that's not completely spontaneous/requires the smallest bit of planning, falls apart..

So I'm kinda disappointed about that, but it's okay I have other stuff going on rn!

As the title suggests.. I'm going to China! Whaaaaaatt!!?? Σ(O_O)

I don't think I have really mentioned this ever, at least here but I am slightly alienated from "western" media and most things I follow online are Chinese media related and influencers, I've met some friends through pen-paling from mainland China and they were the ones to introduce me to their culture.

It's been a dream of mine for a while to go there and learn the language, it's super hard to learn without being able to talk to someone who actually speaks the language.. but since high school in China would be too much for me (also it's not easy to get on board if you transfer there in the middle of the semester) I decided to do something else.

I'm going as an "English tutor", for a few months for this family from Shenzhen. 

The mom and dad both are busy people, they have a skincare company to run so they wish I could hang out with their kids and teach them some English. I already work in childcare and think hanging out with kids is super fun. (I'm a little childish myself ig..) So this is a great deal for me!

Also I would be able to attend the local university for Chinese classes and that's probably what I will be mostly posting about. 

I think my next blog should be from the day I leave.

Here are my current problems tho:

I have an apartment.. in Finland (yeah, now you know where I live!)

And I really like this apartment so I'm kinda hesitant to leave but that's not all. 

I timed everything really badly.. I was so excited to just GO so I didn't think about my contract which says I have to stay here until July.. Or if I end the contract before that they will probably charge me something ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡

I mean it totally makes sense but I really want to leave like next month or in May and I want to be able to find my next apartment via the same agency when I come back, because they have really great houses... But will they not let me if I break the contract..??

Also I kinda promised already to go next month or in May, I don't wanna go back in my words since they are already getting a visa for me..

Would it be too complicated if I just moved my stuff out and kept paying the rent until the contract ends when I wouldn't even be living in there..?? I don't really want to.. It doesn't sound financially smart.. 

(I actually checked and I can't even afford that so it is in fact not an option)

Also my school semester doesn't even end before May but that's like the smallest of these problems.

I wish I could just leave uugghhgg...

And I haven't been to school very actively lately... 

I don't know what it is but when the semester is closing to an end, I just can't make myself go there anymore.. And it's not even the distance! I went to a boarding school last year and my room was like 20 steps from classroom and I just slept in the last period that year.

That must be affecting my grades somehow right? Well maybe not right now, most of my classes in this period can be done online but should I still go there? At least for my friends?????

For next period I'll probably inform my school that I can only take a few online classes because I'll be traveling, so that means I'll be going to school even less, so I should probably see my friends now??

Random sidenote: I've been super into Sonic the hedgehog related content lately.. It's like a new addiction to me. I wonder what that's about...  

Anyways..

It's my dream to just leave, and hopefully I'll enjoy my time in China. My friend is there waiting for me so at least I won't be alone.

And when we get back I will move in together with my bestest friend!!! (and my sister will also live with us)

But we will get a bigger apartment..  ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ 

Okay, that's all for today but I'll be back soon and tell you how I solved everything!