Olivia.

maybe in another universe, we can be friends again. we can go back to the way things were. i wont forget the nights we layed down a blanket, smoked and put our playlist on shuffle. it doesnt matter that we have very different music tastes, we did the best we could do listen to music we both liked. the nights we would stay up until the sun would rise, talking about our problems in life. nothing else mattered when i was with you. you reminded me that life is worth living for. now youre gone. i have nothing to live for. you were my only hope. ill never forget the nights we stayed up getting yelled at by my dad, i wont forget when you spilt dr pepper on me at 3 am. or when we snapped glow sticks and splattered the glow stick juice ll over my room, its still there by the way.  when  you gave me that promise ring. the ring that made us promise to not leave each other no matter how hard it got. no matter how far apart we drifted, we would always go to each other about anything. now youre gone. i was trying to think about myself for once and this happens. i cant think of myself for one fucking second. i finally had you back, the friendship i had always hoped for. i had it all. and before i knew it, it was gone. i went into the camper today. it was how we left it. it wasnt clean, but it wasnt dirty. our shit was everywhere. there were still food wrappers, messy bedsheets, and all of our other essentials we had. it made me realize how special you were to me. how special you still are to me. i miss going to those races with you, and i would do anything for one last quad and dirtbike race with you. i would do anything to hear "everything will be alright" from you. i would do anything to get a hug from you, even if it was a short one. you always made me feel better. when i was around you, nothing else ever mattered. only you and me. now its just me hanging onto our memories. i cant let go of you, liv. ill never forget about you. you. are. everywhere.