summer leaves a bitter aftertaste.

okay hear me out, i love summer so so much. it’s my absolute favourite time of the year and my birthday is in summer too! but there’s one thing about summer that always manages to make me feel like the world is crashing down, which is the fact that for me, every summer that passes just marks another year that flew by so fast. 

like, a few months ago it was summer of 2023 i was on holiday with my family, and i was literally celebrating at a wedding for my cousins (which was so exciting by the way) and it’s already march now? this time last year, all my teachers were warning us about exams and how it’s going to be us sitting them next year. now IM the one sitting national exams. my first official exam is this friday. i finish exams in mid june and then it’s summer again…?! another year gone, just like that. 

its actually so bittersweet because i remember it like it yesterday that i was starting high school. now i’m already half way through high school and i’m making plans for uni? i don’t wanna grow up tbh, i don’t feel ready at all. can i stay 15 forever? adolescence is so easy to forget about but it flies away so fast you dont even realise it. like, ‘oh shit, i’m turning 20 this year’. no more sweet sixteens, or turning 18. 

just some thoughts which cross my mind a bit too often…!