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I came to see you today! It hasn't gotten better. It's been worse, actually. But your pillow was still here you know? So I hugged it, and hugged it, and hugged it because it still smells a bit like you. Like sweet and soft hay, but with a slightly flowery scent.

It left my mouth and nose full of your fur.. my shirt too. That made me laugh, because it somehow felt the same as hugging and kissing you. It was always worth it even if it meant to have a runny nose. 

I thought for a moment about digging your grave to hold you one more time, but even I know that'd be stupid. I left some of your hair on your grave this time. I wanted to do before but i couldn't bring myself to do anything. Just to feel you a bit closer when i look at that pretty flower you've turned into. I hope it stays there at least for a while.

I hope you are here even if I can't see you. Or that you can hear me or read my mind or something, because I've been talking to you like crazy!!!! Though it's okay even if you don't. I'll talk to all the flowers and strawberry that will be on the garden just for you, so they are loved and grow beautifully, just like you. I'll do my best, one more time, so I can make them -and you- happy. To make it a place where you'd love to be.

Rest well today too my princess<3 I miss you