My thoughts of romanticization of obsession, emotional dependence and "yandere"

i'm listening to 'yandere' by Jazmin Bean and i saw some comments like:

"i'm gonna confess to my crush with this one >_<" like, no. stop australopithecus

People who romanticize obsession don't know how suffocating, agonizing and torturing it is to be like that. Emotional dependence is not "cute", it's terrible, but it's obvious that you will love having someone to live for you, live to love you, to adore you, to praise you as if you were a god, everyone wants someone to love unconditionally, but it's better that you KNOW HOW to value her at the same level. Obsession is not love, if you're obsessed with someone, it is not a 'crush' or something like that, it is not even love, but it can become love, only if you AND the person make an effort to make the emotionally dependent person comfortable near AND AWAY from the person they're obsessed with.

I once had obsessive thoughts about the boy i was obsessed with. In case you don't know what "obsessive thoughts" are, they're thoughts of suicide, murder, things like that, intrusive thoughts that you have very often. And I wanted to simply kill, torture, strangle anyone who tried to take the one i was obsessed with away from me, because without him i couldn't live, it was like a drug, but i discovered that i wasn't "in love" with him, but with the feeling he gave me. I never felt calm, I never felt that that anxiety, that EXISTENTIAL EMPTY, was gone, but with him... yes. Every bad feeling went away around him, it was heaven, paradise, it was as if i knew that an angel was by my side, and that wouldn't let any bad thoughts enter my head, and all this feeling that i felt with him, i became obsessed with it (the feeling); I harmed myself, i harmed him, and other people around me, and when i realized, i harmed myself even more, it was like abstinence from a drug, and this "drug" didn't care about me, it only used me to increase its ego, just like people who want emotionally dependent people for themselves just to inflate their egos and then discard them when they no longer need them, when they're already satisfied.

Do you understand now how bad it can be? That's because I didn't even talk HALF about how horrible it is, it feels like someone has 15 thousand anvils on your neck, but you can't die to get rid of the anguish, and you just want to tear yourself apart, but the person insists on sewing you up again (bro- just like 'stitch me up when I get torn, hail kitty, she's so adorned' aah) just so that you can be blinded and induced to make them happy and satisfy them as they please.

About obsession in general !!

Do you know the definition of obsession? "irresistible motivation to perform an irrational act; compulsion." and "exaggerated attachment to an unreasonable feeling or idea." Now tell me, what is done irrationally, that negatively harms someone, can it be IN ANY WAY, cute? Being a stalker isn't "cute", and if the person you "like" finds out, i doubt they'll like/keep liking you, unless they're also insane like you.

I have more things to say, but i think i'll edit them when i remember them, anyway, i'm just angry with these crazy people who think it's cool, but obviously i know that there are people who just want someone obsessed because they're also obsessed people, and they want someone who loves and adores them as much as they know they will, or someone who is traumatized and has not received many/any demonstrations of love, affection, anything like that, then wants to have someone who loves them madly, intensely, who makes them their world, universe, sun, everything, that makes their life revolve around them, as if the person were the sun of their world, because they never had anyone to give the slightest appreciation, so they wants, and feels that it is a basic need to have someone like that. I'm like that, but i'm trying to deal with it, because deep down and sometimes outside, i know it's wrong, i know it's not healthy, and i want to change for the one i love, and change for the better version of me.

I ask for a thousand and one forgiveness if something i said sounded wrong, was misinterpreted or such, i don't want to offend anyone, i just want to give my opinion as i always do on my blogs!! ^_^ I hope you're having a great day! And feel free to share your opinion on the subject regardless of what it is =)