a piece of me just died today

my cat died today. 

idk how to comprehend everything. this is the first time I lost a pet. every minute I think abt my cat, I'm crying. I don't know how to sleep today without him beside me. He loves my blanket more than me. he's my best friend. the only audience who watched my imaginative concerts in my room. the only one who hugs and cuddles me. 

it just hurts even more when I didn't even get to hug him or touch him for the last time. and I couldn't even save him. it hurts a lot. idk what to do