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dear blog,
my life is so boring . . . i wish something interesting would happen. its especially boring because I'm not in public school anymore, I've just been doing online as of right now. i don't have any friends that i really like to talk to, "beggars cant be choosers" i don't care!! I've been this way all my life -- distant and away, from peers at least. maybe I'm to blame for why I'm so lonely and why my life is so boring, but I'm okay for the most part. i get depressed sometimes, and of course I'm lonely; but i don't feel "alone" per say, I'm just lonely. in my free time i do my makeup, which is always fun. i don't like taking photos of myself because i feel i can never get a perfect photo. i just wish that someone was here that i could talk to like all the time, whenever i wanted, you know? i want to cling onto someone, i have the free time to do so! it'd give me something to do other than schoolwork. I'm just so tired of these boring and dull days, nothing ever exciting happens in this young life of mine
love, georgia
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Zona
hey girl, I love that you coded ur blog its super cute!
life is honestly what you make it, I can relate about the public school thing cuz ever since I graduated it felt like hanging out with others became so much more difficult. mostly because I feel like most of the friends ive made don't like me, but the ones I think do like me show it in making an effort to be there for me.
that aside, relationships have and will always be complicated especially with how we as a society are changing and growing too. ive come to realize that in improving yourself people will naturally surround you. I used to super romanticize clingy relationships and oversharing in friendships but that came with the fact that I was ignorant to how I was making people uncomfortable. especially with people pleasing because I got scared when it seemed like they were less emotionally invested in the friendship/relationship.
Loneliness sucks, and everybody has issues that affect how they behave or react but what makes connection special is when we're sensitive to how we make each other feel.
there should always be a mutual balance of boundaries and vulnerabilities.
I recommend just trying to learn more about people and relationships, either via youtube or books. ive found that a lot of therapists have really good insight into what healthy relationship dynamics look like, and ive found that it makes it easier and more accessible for me to socialize with others. hopes this helps, much love girl, stay strong.
thank you so much! your reply is so heart-felt and sweet, to know that there's people out there who relate to my small segments of life i blog about is the most reassuring things ever. i think especially in teen years do relationships become so complicated, more so because teenagers make it that way with how they are and etc.
i think its pretty common for youth to view romance as something exaggerated and dramatic; or maybe I'm just speaking for myself haha. the weird thing about me is that in the beginning I'm super invested, but in the middle of relationships i get emotionally checked out because even I get uncomfortable about it, you know? the urge of wanting to cling and grasp onto people in that manner comes from a hurt deep inside your heart; its a way of comfort to yourself and you almost push that onto others. i feel I'm just this way because i long for human understanding, or maybe I'm just so bored that i need someone's presence to fill a void in my soul
thank you for your kind words and understanding, i can sense that you're super sweet and ill try my best to take your advice:) lonely girls need to look out for one another
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Amen girly. remember that with empathy, patience, and discipline, we all have the potential to grow into beautiful loving creatures
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