GENESIS I

HOW IT ALL STARTED...

Life has given me all kinds of surprises, and I came to the conclusion that I don't like any of them...
Why does life have to be so unfair? I feel so unhappy but I don't have a reason, it's hateful and sometimes I even think that everything is a whim of mine.
Maybe...I deserve it, I deserve to live what I have experienced and remain silent, to have that pain and suffering in my heart, it is clear that anatomically I have one, I need it to live, but I don't feel anything.
There is no empathy or love, maybe just the fear of loneliness, that's why I throw myself on the ground and despise myself, so I can be loved.
I know it's pathetic, I'm ashamed but I don't know what else to do, maybe I take all my secrets to the grave or maybe I managed to talk them out before making a stupid decision.
But, I can't help but feel that soon everything will come to an end, and I'm just getting started, my consciousness has barely awakened, I've lived in an empty body for years and I can barely understand how unhappy and lonely life can be...
It's bitter and it fills me with misery, but maybe, just maybe... I can get out of this.

Now, to let you know that maybe it is all a tantrum and not real pain...

I'll be letting you know how i came to this stupid conclusion.

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