Wishes, hopes, and worries about the new school year.

Aah, it's that time of the year again. The week or so before my schooling officially starts where I rush to my favorite stationary store to buy useless stationary that gives me motivation to start school again, before quickly losing it after a few weeks when I remember that school sucks.

But this year is different, because it's the last time I'll do this! For highschool, at least.

To be honest this year has been weird already, and I very much am struggling to find reasons to think this year won't be difficult to get through. I don't really get along with most of the people in my school, I have a hard time staying motivated, and most of all I'm just sick of the whole thing in general. I want to be in college already! I want to go study art like I've always wanted to.

But either way, I'm trying to stay optimistic, with a bit of realism. I kin Silver the Hedgehog after all. That was a joke that only makes sense if you're deep into Sonic meme culture, anyway...

I see good things, I really do! I'm excited to use this year to go to more alternative fashion/nerdy events, meet more people, and generally start cultivating my life outside of school! I also am excited to keep exploring my newfound interest in harajuku fashion and start overdressing as hell to school (the dream, really).

I definitely feel happier than ever, and that's good. I feel like my life is officially starting and that I'm moving past all the bullshit that happened to me as a kid. It's exciting to get to have one last year of high school before officially getting my adult life started, and it's even more exciting knowing that I finally feel like myself for the first time.

Yeah... I'm worried that it's gonna be hard, because it will be. But I'll live. I always do!