We are all Human. We make Mistakes. Forgiving is hard but necessary for self Peace.

 

Some of y'all be like fuck that, I don't forgive and definitely won't forget. So How i see it is All that energy and happiness sucked out of you when you hear someone mention that someone that just fuckin eats you up from within. To some it's a rival and maybe Gang Related issue. To others it could have been someone who caused trauma in your life.

Well for me it was my biological father. He was suppose to teach me all these great thing bout how to be a Man. But he wasn't the motivating type. His answer to our problems was "figure It out". dude never lifted a finger. But anyways I had so much ill thought towards him. From when i was a young lil toddler ...watching my mom get Beat when he came home drunk from work. ready with the belt. But I was a kid who still loved his father. But all that love made me Hate him because I never got that love back. And I would tell myself if he only fucking knew.

AND that's when I thought of my SON. Would I want my son Hating me and having resentment towards me that it will effect him emotionally and eventually physically. Causing him trauma later in life. How would I be any different, I ask myself..

After many years and only seeing my father a handful of times, I Decided to Go Back to the wicked West of California. 

I met up with my father and I Forgave him. I told him that I Love Him and that i always had love for him even when I hated him. But that I Won't be coming back to that side of the town. I left Cali for a reason. We had no life there because I was Born in the HOOD of EAST L.A and if I would've came back, I'd Be Gang Banging like My brother. I told him that I was Already a 31 yr old man and that chance of being a father has gone past by throughout the years but that He does have a Grandson who is just a 7 yrs old at the time. And that he is welcomed to be part of his life ..... 

 That was 2 years ago and no response. But hey When I Forgave him, it made everything easier. 

.Moral of this Blog is If you hate someone that bad, you giving them CONTROL of your own emotions. You fill up their energy tank, when your energy is spent on Temper, Hate, and your chances of having a good evening is slim.      Namaste