2/26/24

it's been so long since i've actually made a blog post (around a month), but let me do some updates before i get into the actual juice of today. (FEEL FREE TO SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU WANT.) recently i got a therapist, which is huge because my insurance covers it entirely and it's just a relief because therapy is fucking expensive yo. as for the most part, im pretty much the same and yeah. 

DRAMA INCOMING! 

here is a warning before reading the rest of this DRAMA RANT: MENTIONS OF SELF-HARM, OVERDOSE, MENTAL HOSPITALS.

so basically, there is this specific freshman in my gym class (though i think she transferred out or just hasn't showed up to school, which is more likely.) we know each other not because of our mutual class, but because she is apart of the dungeons and dragons club, which i am the vice of. 

i barely even know this girl, and she is a HUGE oversharer. once during gym, she walked up to me and went, "did i ever tell you how one time i was sent to a mental hospital because i overdosed?" like??? i did NOT need to know that, and i BARELY even know you. i do not need to know these things about you, nor anyone else. this was just one time though, and i didn't think much of it, until she started to frequently talk to me more, in which i continued to try and remove/distance myself from her.

she once showed her self harm scars (which were old, but thats besides the point.) however, on another note, she is a pretty big fan of hazbin hotel, which i am not here to bash the show, ONLY TO BASH HER. she really likes this character named VOX, who is basically this TV-head guy with a suit, and he's evil-- so thats a little TLDR for people who don't know who this dude is.

during a session of dnd, she joined our session and didn't even ask, (she also would occasionally disrupt the dm,) but she asked one of my friends if she could draw on the back of his character sheet, in which he said okay. she asked me about vox, in which i said i drew him, and showed her the drawing i did of him. she started to HUFF AND BREATHE HEAVILY OVER MY DRAWING, and continued to go QUICKLY, BUT LOUDLY, 

"SMASH."

while she had my friends character sheet, she pulled out HER PHONE, and started to breathe heavily (similar how she had done with my drawing of him,) to an actual picture of VOX, and put her face dangerously close to her phone as she drew him on the back of the sheet. her nose was literal centimeters from her phone, and my friend ended up taking back his character sheet.

she has to be one of the worst cases of someone being so mentally ill and chronically online IN REAL LIFE IVE EVER FUCKING SEEN WITH MY OWN EYES. I NEED MORE THAN JUST BLEACH TO RID ME OF HER EXISTENCE AND PRESENCE. THIS GIRL IS WEIRD. AND YOU KNOW ITS BAD WHEN SOMEONE WHO CONSIDERS THEMSELVES WEIRD STARTS CALLING OTHER PEOPLE WEIRD. THATS ALL IM SAYING. none the less, she doesn't try to message me, and i am thankful enough that she keeps her distance at least online. 

anyways im gonna take a break by watching "MAKE SOME NOISE" on dropoutTV. thank god for comedy.